'It wasn't worth it'

<sub>In the battlefield, desperate, he manages to find Charles. Erik knows he himself is the one to blame for all of this. Yet Charles smiles weakly at him and a feeling of forgiveness tugs at his mind. And there, in the end of everything, Erik holds Charles and whispers:

"It wasn't worth it".

But Charles just isn't there to hear it anymore.</sub>

Erik/Charles from X-Men: First Class

Close Up on faces here:

I would love to write something accurate and prettier but I'm no writer. That's why I paint to express myself :/

If I don't do something angsty I think I die or something. Also, I can get back to WoW raiding. I couldn't until I finished this because my head didn't let me D:

Also this is dedicated to (AKA Loobeeinthesky) because she is amazing like that and also her art is . Happy birthday, hun!

Idea surged because of several things:

- My take on this cover just with XMFC.

- My love for Pietás :>

- "As if the world wasn't ending" by Sonata Arctica. I've always wanted to make something that goes along with this song...

- "I know him so well" (by John Barrowman) fanvideo. It was playing while I was drawing and me me go like *snif* This is kind of Charles part in my head while he is dying...

- Seeing the fantastic work by Loobeintesky that encouraged me further to continue with this when I got home...

- The X-Men: First Class fandom, which is full of great talent and always inspires me things.

- This scene from Civil War - The Confession. It's a scene I find it like, AMAZING. That's where the title is from.


Painting this was like... A HELL in some parts. Started with a lol-doodle in a scrap of paper. Then a partly figure in my sketchbook and then I scanned it and continued to work on this from Photoshop. Then decided not to take my usual route and started with greyscale tones only.

Fun and easy.

Then I began to apply colours and it was HELL.

Trying to figure out which layer blend modes use it's something I'm totally not accustomed to so in the first stage was like someone threw up a rainbow onto it (not that Purple/Red Magneto's colours hepled a lot :/). I can't tell how many things were made and unmade until I got they right colours, and then used the right adjustment layers and then... well, it had to end sometime so I consciously put an end to it xD And this is the result that happened. Colours are a bit odd for what I'm used to but I'm pleased enough... I think.

Hope you like anyway

Also, soon, some step by step...

<sub>PS: I would be using this method some more because I'm a masochist I'd like to get better results and it's interesting at the least...

Credits:

- Barren texture from ~hhh316
- Pencils from *sandara, *algenpfleger, *nathie, ~spiritsighs-stockand some of my own.
- Also several tutorials from here, here, here and here.
All were very insightful, but, as they say in most of them this colouring method ends in "using what you most feel it needs".</sub>